I now have a temporary computer so the internet is way easier for me. However when I write it tends to lag and it takes forever for the courser to catch up with me and I have horrible patience. So if anything in this blog is spelled wrong sorry!
Again Im sorry for my laziness its a thing lately, I think mostly from doing the same thing over and over every day. Wake up, go to work , do nothing, listen to stupidity, come home go to bed. do it all over again the next day. And then I find myself living for the small thrills of getting a face painting gig (or in my case i have 2 this weekend) Not that I'm not grateful but I feel like I should be doing more. This usually leads into the part where I get depressed and cry for no apparent reason, and then chew the boyfriend's head off. How he puts up with me I'll never know. But any way about a week or two later I start to notice my room is a mess and then I start getting motivated and start all over on making a career and trying to be happy. Isn't being a female post grad great!
So I guess my current goals are to get enough money to go to my little sisters wedding in June. My next paycheck should do it. Then on top of that I'm turning 23 next month which I'm not ok with but who is? I don't know I feel young one moment and then I feel old the next, dosn't help that I work with people still in high school. And I'm not saying I want to be married and have kids right now but I see everyone else and have a feeling that that's where I'm suppose to be. Or at least I'd like to be able to afford to move in with someone. It's so lonely having your own room and living 10 bizzilion miles away from everyone. Yes I have the boyfriend and love him oh sooooooooo much but I still go home at the end of the night and sit in my room alone.
This is literally turning into ranting........
I promise I'll get happier!
Haley JoAnna
everyone feels like they aren't where they should be when looking at someone else's life...at least, us 20something feel that way! at least you have a job, boyfriend and things to look forward to : ) let's keep in touch : )
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